How come it’s June already? It feels like it was just a few days ago that I came back to Southampton from Ljubljana at midnight, deadly exhausted, where in fact it was 6 weeks ago. I honestly can’t remember what I did in those 6 weeks, it’s been such a big blur. Going to the library everyday has become a routine that it’s hard to distinguish one day from the other. I remember some bits, of course. Some all-nighters to meet deadlines, coming early to the library to get a seat with plugs and coming home before midnight, a couple of nervous breakdowns and emergency trips to Sprinkles for some scoops of ice cream (thank you, Dwi and Eric), panicking and trying to soothe someone who was panicking more at the same time (yes, it’s you, Farah), and excessive use of sophisticated words that shouldn’t belong in mundane conversations, like ‘volatile’, ‘utility’. or ‘payoff’.

Fortunately there were things that made all these things become more bearable. Like meeting Maša between the study sessions for a quick catch up or some emergency situations with whispers between the shelves (who would’ve thought that there would be such crises in the library?). There were also late night conversations with Timothy and Ai, soothing words from Didi, some trans-Pacific calls, and much-needed hugs from close friends.

And thinking back, May wasn’t that depressing. I had fun dancing one night at Cinco de Mayo, taking a day trip to London with Dwi to see Arctic Monkeys concert, and going out with friends a couple of times in between.

It scares me so much that May has ended. I’ve been here for eight and a half months and it’s coming to an end really soon. I’m scared that I don’t make enough memories, don’t take enough pictures, and don’t write enough stuff to remind me someday that these good things did happen while I was in Southampton.

I swear to myself I’m gonna make the most of it for the rest of my time here.

And because I’ve promised myself to take more pictures, here’s a start.

Arctic Monkeys concert. One word: Brutal.

The last exam, which ended gloriously with everyone saying ‘What the *insert the 4-letter curse word*?’

My antidepressants. Enough said.

So this is a goodbye to exams, assignments, and May, and a hello to June, dissertation, summer, and a bit of holiday.

It’s gonna be good.