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Blue April
So May has finally come, and I have to say that I’ve never been this grateful to say goodbye to April. April has never done any harm to me, until this last one. It brought me a lot more blues than it had done before. This is the month where relationships fell apart. I grew…
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A Late-Night Contemplation
Thursday, April 12 2012 Drove on the highway, down to the empty lanes, with the gas running low and John Mayer’s CD played on repeat. The city lights shone merrily, as if to sweep away the blues. As if to say, “Hey, come on. Some lights are still on.” There are things that should be…
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On Crossing the Line
There’s this time when you know that you’ve crossed the line you drew yourself, but something in you tells you to keep going instead of going back, because you need to know what lies on the other side of the line. I remember what Dinoy said to me, “It’s better to regret the things you do…
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There’s always a first time of everything, people say
I never see myself as a quitter, and I definitely never tell myself to give up on something. But there’s always a first time for everything. This is the first time. Because sometimes, there’s a thing that doesn’t (and won’t) work the way you want it. So the best thing you can do is accept…
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On Living in Uncertainty
More than anything, I hate living in uncertainty. Waiting for a piece of paper that will officially state me as a participant of something I’ve been dreaming since I was a child, waiting for a good news about internship, or any kind of waiting. The worst part is, there’s nothing I can do about it,…
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Redefining ‘Home’
Jakarta has never been a home to me. I never get used to the traffic jam, the overpopulated space, the polluted air, the ridiculous number of malls and buildings that keeps growing, or the high number of crimes. For the last three weeks, I’ve been living in this horrendous city and I’ve never been more…
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Do What You Love, Love What You Do
Impulsive might be my middle name. I like to do whatever comes to my head without thinking ‘what if’. Screw what ifs, I’ll deal with those later. That’s what I always think at the beginning of doing something impulsive. Lucky for me, he usually goes along with my crazy impulsive ideas. Even better, the crazy…
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Simple Happiness
People are happy for different reasons. For a business man, maybe it’s when he’s got a huge deal on a real-estate property. For a busy working mom, all she needs is more time with her children to bring a huge smile on her face. For a college student, maybe it’s getting an A, or brilliantly…
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Peter Pan Syndrome
Most of you have probably watched or read Peter Pan. Peter Pan is a boy from Neverland who refuses to grow up. When he meets Wendy in the ‘real world’ (whom he later falls for), he faces the option of staying there and growing up. He refuses and chooses to return to Neverland, as he…
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Be Careful Of What You Dream Of
Sometimes, you have no idea how delirious a dream could be. I’d had a dream about something since the very first day I knew it. I’d been living on that dream for more than two years, worked harder than anyone I knew, until one day I finally got it. I’m still living that dream now.…
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